Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weight loss. Show all posts

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Overcoming the voices in my head......

Not like the crazy ones.... I don't think anyway.  Just the ones that are there telling you you can't do things... making excuses....holding you back, you know the ones.  They are LOUD in my head lately.  
I need to get back into a healthy mindset- eating healthy, and working out.  But I have so many "excuses".  

I'm tired. SO. FREAKING. TIRED.   We brought Eleanor home on July 10th, and I haven't slept since.  That is an exaggeration.... somewhat.  I get bout 6 hours of constantly interrupted sleep a night. I'd like to think I could make up for it during the day while she naps... that's what everyone says to do ya know.  But those people must not have a 3 year old, and doctors appointments, and grocery shopping, and laundry.... 




So anyhow, that's excuse number 1:  I'm exhausted. She's worth it though....




Number 2: My house is still torn apart, and I have no kitchen.  This makes it VERY hard to eat healthy.  I can't cook anything, so I can't meal prep.  I do ok in the mornings, I have a protein shake or a "Kind" bar, through out the day I snack- which isn't the best.... "Kind" granola, lunchmeats, cheese... it's dinner that kills me.  We eat out almost every night and it's hard to stay on track doing that.  I could make BETTER choices though.  




Unfortunately I don't care for wine- if I did this would be a dinner I could do even with a wrecked Kitchen.




Number 3:  Fear.  It's hard to get out there and push yourself physically when every breath makes you wince in fear of ending up back in the hospital.  I'm scared.  But I can't control it.  If my lung is going to collapse again, it's going to do it whether I'm sitting on the couch, or out running a 5k, and that's what I need to keep in my head.  I can't let this disease control me.  I need to decide to rise above it, and do the things I CAN do for those that can't do them anymore.  I don't want to waste away another healthy moment because of fear.  Don't worry Mom, I won't go run any marathons or do anything stupid, but I will start working back into my regular routine.  I just want to feel healthy and strong again.




So, I've thought of all kinds of things I could try.  Weight loss clinics, cleanses, direct sale gimmicks, crash diets, etc etc etc.  I know they don't last though- and thankfully I'm cheap, and I don't want to blow a few hundred bucks on temporary results.  If it wasn't for that I'd probably be "cleansing" away right now!  So instead I joined The Biggest Loser on Facebook.  I won second place once back before I had Lilah, and I actually participated in a few rounds when I lost the majority of my weight before.  It's accountability if nothing else, its affordable, and I love a chance to win some money!  The competition starts tomorrow and goes for 7 weeks.  My goal is 20 pounds.  Normally I would aim for 1-1.5 pounds a week realistically, but since this is pregnancy weight I think I can lose it a little faster.

I'll check in weekly here with my progress.  I plan to go low carb (only 1-2 servings a day of whole food carbs-no refined stuff) that's always worked for me... with my PCOS causing insuin resistance if I look at sugar too long I gain 5 pounds. As far as exercise I'm going to do the Couch to 5k training, it's something I can realistically do without having to worry about daycare.  I can load the girls up in the stroller and go outside and get it done.  I'd also like to get back to a few classes a week at the gym, but those will just be bonuses if I can get a sitter here and there.  

Now, to eat all the foods before tomorrow........  




Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Home sweet Hotel.

I feel like a gypsy.  We left our house last Wednesday and stayed the night up in Shingletown, Thursday we checked into the a hotel here in town, Saturday we left for Fresno, and stayed in a hotel there Saturday night.  My dad was elected Commander of the Department of California for the American Legion.  We are all very proud of him, and know he is the perfect guy for the job!  Here we are at the Department convention in Fresno on Sunday-



We checked into a different hotel back in Woodland when we returned Sunday (the original hotel didn't have a pool!), then Monday night we had to move hotel rooms because the AC went out.  We are all settled in a new room now, with a bigger fridge... and Lilah is loving the pool.



It's been an adventure to say the least-  and I'm learning just how "minimalistically" (is that a word?  I don't care...) I can live.  I keep thinking of things I want to grab from the house- and then talking myself out of it.  

Trying to tell myself "it'll just be a few more days, you don't need it." 

 and "that's just more stuff to pack up when it's time to go home." 

Realistically though if I was able to go to the house I'd probably just go get all these things I think of!  I've been given strict orders to stay out though- and Andrew "lost" ( I'm thinking it was on purpose) my house key so I can't even sneak over there!

As of today they are still doing asbestos removal- it should be done today.  Then they need to retest and get clearance, then the water damage team can finish the dry out- THEN we can talk about reconstructing.  I feel like we have awhile still before we get to go home.  We were hoping to go home this weekend, but the asbestos team has taken longer than expected, and until at least the walls are rebuilt we need to stay in the hotel.  Missing walls in 110 degree weather isn't going to work for me.  

I am however, getting nervous about returning home the longer this takes!  I figured we'd be home days ago, and I could get everything unpacked and cleaned before Eleanor makes her arrival.  Now I am beginning to think I will be bringing Eleanor home to the Holiday Inn, and she will be there to help me unpack and clean once the time finally comes.  

Ok, let's get to the real stuff.  I've eaten like crap, and missed a few workouts.  I am tired, our schedules are a wreck, I can't cook, it's freaking hot, and I'm going to have this baby any day I think. There ya go, my list of excuses!  I'm TRYING to do my best- I've gotten Nugget's salad bar instead of McDonald's, I've had apples and whole wheat tortillas with PB for dinner instead of Taco Bell.... but I've also had shakes from Sonic, and M&Ms.  It's stress eating, it's comfort food, it's convenience, and maybe 5% pregnancy cravings.   I'm really trying to get my workouts in though.  I've made it to a few classes at the gym, went for a good walk with Marie in Shingletown, I even did Zumba twice... I hate Zumba- but it's what was available when I had the free time so I did it.  This morning I went and walked around target for about 40 minutes- got in 4000 steps!  Tonight I will go to Ultimate conditioning at the gym.  I went to it last night as well.  Monday I even got ALL green!  I was pretty proud of myself!  Almost did it yesterday, but I slept in so I didn't get my hourly activity at 7:00 am.



I need to start thinking about what I want to do after the baby is born  I want to do something new and fun, some sort of program that will give me motivation and accountability.  I know what I need to do, I know how to work out, I know what foods to eat, but I work harder for other people- instructors, coaches, etc- so I want a program.  Any suggestions??

Oh- Baby update.... I am 11 days from my due date.  I've had some contractiony type feelings but I think they are more braxton hicks that real contractions.  Having some mild back pain today, but that's really about it so far.  Check up Friday morning.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

The "Almost" Biggest Loser

Today ended my second round of the Virtual Biggest Loser Competition.  Between the two rounds, I have lost 33 lbs over a total of 16 weeks.  I was down a little over 1 pound this week,  leaving me with 9 pounds to reach my goal. 11.05% was my total lost this round, just shy of claiming 3rd place like I did last round.  No worries though, I'm still pretty proud of my accomplishments!  I have to say I am kind of glad it's over though, I find myself too consumed with it, and with being so close to my goal and not having a huge amount to lose, I don't want to spend my time stressing about loosing more weight than a stranger on Facebook next week!  LoL

We ran out to Sacramento for a tool sale Friday evening when my hubby got home from work (I know, we really DO know how to party on a Friday night around here!).  It was almost 7:00 when we got back to town, so I was trying to think of something I could throw together quickly for dinner.  Here is what I came up with

 Flat Out Breakfast Pizza!

1 Flat Out
Shredded Cheese
Bacon
Turkey Sausage
2 eggs

-Pre Heat oven to 350
-Lightly spray Flat Out with EVOO, and place directly on oven rack for 7 minute
-Remove from oven, top with cheese meat, and eggs.
(I made little "wells" in the cheese to hold the eggs in their place)
-Return to oven and bake for another 7 minutes.

These were a hot, even more so that the regular pizzas we made using flat out.  I will definitely be adding this meal to my menu rotation! Someday, when I make a menu rotation.  Right now my strategy is writing out a list on Monday mornings off the top of my head.

Saturday morning I went to class with Danielle, and then we did a quick run on the treadmill.  No stadiums again, boo. Today is my off day.  Danielle and I mentioned going to the High school this morning, but due to the fate of the coin toss, we took a pass. :)  I am looking forward to getting back to my routine tomorrow morning now that my early morning buddy is back!

I have been thinking about getting a new tattoo for awhile now.  Something to kind of signify the changes I have made/am making and all it took to make them happen.  I decided I want a white tiger to be the focus of  it.  I want it to be big, like from my waist to my shoulder.  I see it looking feminine, mysterious, almost a sexy look to it maybe, not viscous.  I want it to have my eyes, and over stated lashes.... and I want it to have black and pink stripes.  I want it's paws on my shoulder,  "clawing" me, revealing a matching tiger striped patter under my skin,   representing the change or transformation.  Now I just need to properly convey it all to an artist and hope that the drawing turns out how I see it in my head.  Maybe I can plant a seed in the hubby's mind that it would be a great Christmas present.... of big 3-0 gift!


Monday, July 30, 2012

Mangia!

Workout towel

You might be familiar with the saying "Abs are made in the kitchen, not the gym".  I heard it once a couple months back from an instructor at the gym... She modified it a little by saying 85% in the kitchen 15% in the gym.  If you think about it, it makes perfect sense.  If your abs are covered in fat, who cares how strong and defined they are!  And vice versa, if you do 500 crunches a day, but eat nothing but crap, well, again, who cares, you aren't going to see results!  So that brings me to the main point of this blog.... eating.  I had a few requests for more recipes and meal ideas.  I am going to repost the diet plan that I follow, and then post some meal ideas that fit into that plan.  Personally I am following a stricter version of the plan this week, and maybe next, simply because I have been on the maintenance phase for weeks now, and I think my body is getting complacent, so I like to switch it up a little.  I will be omitting fruit and most whole grains (brown rice, popcorn, oats, etc).  The meal Ideas I share will follow the diet given below though, and will include fruit and whole grains.

Bad List 
Sugar (include hidden sugars- orange juice) 
Breads/baked goods and flour 
Potatoes 
Yogurt 
Beer 
White wine 
Bananas 

So-So List
Serving Size = tennis ball
Pasta
Rice 
  

Good List
Everything else.
 You can eat any meats, 
fruits, vegetables, or nuts that aren’t listed above.  
Dairy products are also good.  There is no need to limit portion size. 

Red Wine may be consumed in moderation. 

Phase 1 
(Restrictive) 
Nothing from the Bad List 
1-2 Servings/week from So-So List 
As much as you want from the Good List 
Use Phase 1 for 4 weeks 
This should help with the cravings and 
give you impressive results. 
You may be hungry between meals for 1-
2 weeks.  Eat snacks from the good list.  

Phase 2 
(Maintenance) 
2-3 servings/week from Bad List 
3-4 servings/week from So-So List 
As much as you want from the Good list

Cheat day 1 time/week 


Since this eating plan is so cut an dry it does leave a lot of room for your own interpretations.  It doesn't say anything about whole grains, corn, oats, brown rice, etc.  So I assume they are part of the "Good list" and fall under the "Everything else" category.  That being said, I believe that the pasta and rice under the "so-so" list is white rice and regular pasta.  Any recipes I give here that include rice or pasta will be Brown rice, and either whole grain pasta, or Brown Rice flour pasta.  

Breakfast, the most important meal of the day!  I struggle with this one.  6 days a week I get up at 5:00 AM and am working out by 5:30 AM.  I can not eat before I work out, It makes me feel slow and lazy... I get home around 6:30 and have my coffee, and then lots of days have another work out later that morning, so it is sometimes around 10:00 AM before I eat for the morning.  Not a good practice, but it is what it is.  But, for those of you that are breakfast people, here are some meal ideas!

Breakfast
-Oatmeal - plain, unsweetened
Sweeten with one of the following:
 Splenda, sugar free maple syrup, berries

-Eggs- I hard boil 6 eggs almost every Monday.
 Quick and easy to grab and eat in a hurry.
Scrambled eggs or egg whites 
with veggies are another one of my 
favorites.  For those of you in a hurry in the morning, 
you can make them in the microwave :)

-Bacon and Sausage- Yum!  I make these ahead of time as well. 
For instance, yesterday morning I cooked a whole
package of turkey bacon, and put it in a ziplock bag
in the fridge.  That way I can use it through out 
the week without having to worry about cooking it. 

-Crustless Quiche- great make ahead breakfast.  
Portion it out Sunday evening, 
then grab it on your way out the door in the mornings.


obviously you can change the veggies and cheese type to fit your taste.

Protein Shakes- Be careful here, these can have lots of sugar,
Atkins brand is acceptable, and "Advantage Carb Control"
 is as well (and cheaper, $4.98 a 4 pack at Walmart).
The more protein that's in it, the longer it will stick with you.

-Atkins Oatmeal Cinnamon Baked Squares-
or other Atkins bars.

-Cottage cheese- check the carb count on it,
 some brands are higher than others, and low fat tends to be higher 
than full fat. Add fruit, or my favorite, tomatoes :)


Let me mention that I tend to eat more of a snack sized meal every few hours through out the day rather than sitting down at 12 and having an actual lunch.  I prefer to eat smaller quantities more frequently that eating a large portion at once.  Even at dinner I tend to have smaller amounts, and then have another "snack" after dinner before bed.   So here are some of the things I eat, maybe you can combine a few together for a full sized lunch if that is more your style.Lets say this topic covers "snacks" as well.

-Lunch meat roll ups- Any kind of lunch meat (as long as its unsweetened)
add cheese (cream cheese, sliced cheese, shredded cheese) and roll!

-Pickles - I like these with the lunch meat roll ups,
sometimes I put them in the middle of the roll.

-Popcorn - it's a whole grain, I buy the 
"Kernel's Seasons" and sprinkle
 them on to change up the flavors.
 No sweet popcorn! (ie Kettle corn or caramel corn)

-Salad- This is a wide category!  I stick with
Dark lettuce, iceberg has less nutrients. Add veggies- my
go to choices are broccoli, mushrooms, tomatoes,
olives.  I add a little shredded cheese, and some protein- 
Diced lunch meet, grilled chicken, hard boiled egg, etc.

-Apple and PB- I used all natural PB because it is 
lower in sugar.

-Fruit- apples, grapes, berries, etc,, just no bananas

-Veggies- carrots, broccoli, tomatoes, mushrooms, 
snap peas, etc (just be careful with ones like tomatoes, carrots, and corn, 
they have lots of natural sugar in them).  I like them raw with ranch, or
other veggie dips.

- Brown Rice- I buy the little single serving cups, toss it in the micro
with some broccoli or chicken, or whatever other 
protein or veggie you had around.


-Wrap-  Flat Out wrap, fill with meat, lettuce, and other veggies,
wrap, and enjoy!

-Left overs!- whatever is left over from dinner the night before 
is already cooked and part of your diet!

And then we have dinner!  Dinner is the hardest for me, because I cook for the whole family.  The family that likes pasta and bread.  The kids are pretty easy going, and not too picky.  Don't get me wrong, they'd rather have spaghetti and pizza, but they do eat what I make.  The husband on the other hand, he wants his meat and potatoes, so I am always on the hunt for something new and appealing that will keep everyone happy.

I have shared quite a few dinner recipes so far, I'll repost those, and add some new ones.  I'll start with what I am making tonight:

 -Flat Out Pizza!- This is a double whammy, it's low
carb, and low cal/fat.  Just be mindful of your toppings and you'll 
have a healthy meal! Tonight I am using grilled chicken, artichoke hearts,
and olives.
Cook lightly oiled Flatout in 350°F oven 
directly on grate for 7 minutes.
 Remove, top with sauce and toppings.
 Return to oven, cook 7 more minutes. 
Remove and cut into slices. Serves 2.

-Carne Asada
 only thing I changed was I didn't add orange juice.  
serve with some fresh corn on the cob, and pinto beans (check ingredients for sugar)!


-Pizza Stufed Chicken Breast-
I used a pesto sauce instead of a tomato sauce (less sugar), 
and I put some chopped pepperoni in the stuffing
 as well as the slices on top.  
Paired with steamed broccoli and a green salad.

-Taco Salad- Lettuce, tomatoes, avocado, 
cheese, salsa, and meat (ground beef, grilled chicken, 
steak, etc) I add whole pinto beans sometimes.

The only changes I made:
 1)Brown Rice pasta, instead of whole wheat pasta. 
2) Add 2 cups of cubed ham.

I have a few more dinner recipes coming up later this week as well, so stay tuned!

While we are on the eating subject... I did very well at the wedding until dessert.  I had stuffed mushrooms, chicken, and veggies.  No potatoes or rolls... but I did cave at cake time, and I ate a few bites of frosting and a bite of the cake.  Then, last night, I ate a whole freaking piece of cake.  Ugh.  FAIL.  Sunday IS my cheat day, but that was pushing it! 

Kayle couldn't make it to stadiums this morning, so I went back to bed.  None of the other girls made it last week, so I didn't want to get ready and drive over there and have no one else show up.  I am too nervous to do it alone (I envision falling or being robbed, lol) so then I would have left and gotten no work out anyway.  So I went back to bed!  LAZY.  Then I planned on going to class at 8:30, and woke up with a horrible back ache, and so I didn't do that either!!  I am rather disappointed in myself at this point.  As of now my plan is to go to the gym before noon, do a set of weight intervals, and a run on the treadmill.  I took some advil, and my back feels better but not great, so fingers crossed I follow through.


Monday, July 9, 2012

One of my challenges...


This has been a hard battle for me!  It's so ingrained in me, and most of society, to celebrate with food!  And normally, it's bad food!  Something to celebrate usually leads to "lets go to dinner!"  "lets go for drinks!" "let's get dessert!",  Birthdays, weddings, parties in general, holidays, they all tend to have an abundance of not so healthy foods and sweets!  So retraining myself to find other ways to "celebrate" special occasions or accomplishments has not been easy!

I have found some ways to cheat the system, by making "sweets" that fit into my eating plan, but that only works at home!  Take the fourth of July for instance... For dessert we had sugar free angelfood cake, with strawberries and blueberries, sweetened with splenda, and sugar free cool whip topping.  It was delicious, and guilt free.  But it's not that easy if you go to a party at someone else's home, or venue.  Sure, you can "just say no", but then you have to deal with the repercussions.... "it's just one piece of cake!"  "It's a special occasion, it's ok!" etc.  It's hard to be strong and not give in to all that.  I've often found it's easier to just accept the contraband, and then not eat it (the old, break it up, move it around, then get rid of it trick usually works)!

Here is another favorite of mine, that helps curb the sweet tooth, and tastes delicious!


http://www.budgetsavvydiva.com/2012/05/copy-cat-recipe-wendys-frosty/.  I use nonfat milk, and sugar free pudding so that it works for me.  


I'm making it a goal for myself to make sure that I offer other types of rewards and ways to celebrate for my family..... one of my favorite replacements is shopping ;)