I need to get back into a healthy mindset- eating healthy, and working out. But I have so many "excuses".
I'm tired. SO. FREAKING. TIRED. We brought Eleanor home on July 10th, and I haven't slept since. That is an exaggeration.... somewhat. I get bout 6 hours of constantly interrupted sleep a night. I'd like to think I could make up for it during the day while she naps... that's what everyone says to do ya know. But those people must not have a 3 year old, and doctors appointments, and grocery shopping, and laundry....
So anyhow, that's excuse number 1: I'm exhausted. She's worth it though....
Number 2: My house is still torn apart, and I have no kitchen. This makes it VERY hard to eat healthy. I can't cook anything, so I can't meal prep. I do ok in the mornings, I have a protein shake or a "Kind" bar, through out the day I snack- which isn't the best.... "Kind" granola, lunchmeats, cheese... it's dinner that kills me. We eat out almost every night and it's hard to stay on track doing that. I could make BETTER choices though.
Unfortunately I don't care for wine- if I did this would be a dinner I could do even with a wrecked Kitchen.
Number 3: Fear. It's hard to get out there and push yourself physically when every breath makes you wince in fear of ending up back in the hospital. I'm scared. But I can't control it. If my lung is going to collapse again, it's going to do it whether I'm sitting on the couch, or out running a 5k, and that's what I need to keep in my head. I can't let this disease control me. I need to decide to rise above it, and do the things I CAN do for those that can't do them anymore. I don't want to waste away another healthy moment because of fear. Don't worry Mom, I won't go run any marathons or do anything stupid, but I will start working back into my regular routine. I just want to feel healthy and strong again.
So, I've thought of all kinds of things I could try. Weight loss clinics, cleanses, direct sale gimmicks, crash diets, etc etc etc. I know they don't last though- and thankfully I'm cheap, and I don't want to blow a few hundred bucks on temporary results. If it wasn't for that I'd probably be "cleansing" away right now! So instead I joined The Biggest Loser on Facebook. I won second place once back before I had Lilah, and I actually participated in a few rounds when I lost the majority of my weight before. It's accountability if nothing else, its affordable, and I love a chance to win some money! The competition starts tomorrow and goes for 7 weeks. My goal is 20 pounds. Normally I would aim for 1-1.5 pounds a week realistically, but since this is pregnancy weight I think I can lose it a little faster.
I'll check in weekly here with my progress. I plan to go low carb (only 1-2 servings a day of whole food carbs-no refined stuff) that's always worked for me... with my PCOS causing insuin resistance if I look at sugar too long I gain 5 pounds. As far as exercise I'm going to do the Couch to 5k training, it's something I can realistically do without having to worry about daycare. I can load the girls up in the stroller and go outside and get it done. I'd also like to get back to a few classes a week at the gym, but those will just be bonuses if I can get a sitter here and there.
Now, to eat all the foods before tomorrow........
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