Overcoming the voices in my head......

Not like the crazy ones.... I don't think anyway.  Just the ones that are there telling you you can't do things... making excuses....holding you back, you know the ones.  They are LOUD in my head lately.  
I need to get back into a healthy mindset- eating healthy, and working out.  But I have so many "excuses".  

I'm tired. SO. FREAKING. TIRED.   We brought Eleanor home on July 10th, and I haven't slept since.  That is an exaggeration.... somewhat.  I get bout 6 hours of constantly interrupted sleep a night. I'd like to think I could make up for it during the day while she naps... that's what everyone says to do ya know.  But those people must not have a 3 year old, and doctors appointments, and grocery shopping, and laundry.... 

So anyhow, that's excuse number 1:  I'm exhausted. She's worth it though....

Number 2: My house is still torn apart, and I have no kitchen.  This makes it VERY hard to eat healthy.  I can't cook anything, so I can't meal prep.  I do ok in the mornings, I have a protein shake or a "Kind" bar, through out the day I snack- which isn't the best.... "Kind" granola, lunchmeats, cheese... it's dinner that kills me.  We eat out almost every night and it's hard to stay on track doing that.  I could make BETTER choices though.  

Unfortunately I don't care for wine- if I did this would be a dinner I could do even with a wrecked Kitchen.

Number 3:  Fear.  It's hard to get out there and push yourself physically when every breath makes you wince in fear of ending up back in the hospital.  I'm scared.  But I can't control it.  If my lung is going to collapse again, it's going to do it whether I'm sitting on the couch, or out running a 5k, and that's what I need to keep in my head.  I can't let this disease control me.  I need to decide to rise above it, and do the things I CAN do for those that can't do them anymore.  I don't want to waste away another healthy moment because of fear.  Don't worry Mom, I won't go run any marathons or do anything stupid, but I will start working back into my regular routine.  I just want to feel healthy and strong again.

So, I've thought of all kinds of things I could try.  Weight loss clinics, cleanses, direct sale gimmicks, crash diets, etc etc etc.  I know they don't last though- and thankfully I'm cheap, and I don't want to blow a few hundred bucks on temporary results.  If it wasn't for that I'd probably be "cleansing" away right now!  So instead I joined The Biggest Loser on Facebook.  I won second place once back before I had Lilah, and I actually participated in a few rounds when I lost the majority of my weight before.  It's accountability if nothing else, its affordable, and I love a chance to win some money!  The competition starts tomorrow and goes for 7 weeks.  My goal is 20 pounds.  Normally I would aim for 1-1.5 pounds a week realistically, but since this is pregnancy weight I think I can lose it a little faster.

I'll check in weekly here with my progress.  I plan to go low carb (only 1-2 servings a day of whole food carbs-no refined stuff) that's always worked for me... with my PCOS causing insuin resistance if I look at sugar too long I gain 5 pounds. As far as exercise I'm going to do the Couch to 5k training, it's something I can realistically do without having to worry about daycare.  I can load the girls up in the stroller and go outside and get it done.  I'd also like to get back to a few classes a week at the gym, but those will just be bonuses if I can get a sitter here and there.  

Now, to eat all the foods before tomorrow........  

Accomplishments!

Forgive me, but I have to brag a little bit.  I am SO proud of my Mom! She committed to trying my eating plan for one week..... almost 3 weeks ago.  She has since lost about an average of 1.5 lbs a week (I hope I am giving the right number there) and has stuck to the plan!  And, like me, she is a carb lover!  So see, it is possible to give up those chips and breads that you think you can't live without!  As if that wasn't enough reason to be proud of her, this week she started a Kick Boxing class!!!  Mom, you are doing great.  I am so excited to see where this new healthy lifestyle takes you, I knew you could do it!  Keep up the good work!

Speaking of being proud, I am proud of Carrie and I, too!  Wow, so much pride today, ha!  After stadiums this morning I met up with Carrie for a run.  Week 6, day 3.... Run 25 minutes. We decided we would do it, and just see how far we could go and do our best.  Well, we did it!!  25 minutes, no stopping.  We completed 2.9 miles at an average of 11:30 a mile.  It calculates our 5 minute warm up walk and 5 minute cool down walk into that average unfortunately, so that brings down our time, but the important thing is we accomplished it, and we didn't think we would!  

So yesterday I stuck to my plan and I did weights in the afternoon, only I went to the gym and did them because I wanted a step, and I wanted dumbells. I worked my Chest and biceps most, with a little legs and one set of triceps. Here is the routine I made:

Warm Up

30 seconds jumping jacks

30 second jump rope

30 seconds side punch

30 seconds front punch

30 second butt kickers

30 second squats

For sets 1-3: do 15 reps of each unless otherwise stated, Repeat each set 3 times

Set 1:

Chest Flys

Hammer Curls

Tricep Press

1 minute Step (run up and down)

Set 2:

Bench Press

Prison Squat*

Straight leg dead lift

1 minute step (side to side lunges)

Set 3:

Diagonal Hammer Curls

Walking Lunges (10 one way, 10 back)

Bicep Curls

Cardio (fast side to side knee lifts)

*these are squats, with arms behind your head, eyes on the ceiling

Tomorrow I am doing Stadiums, and going to Muscle conditioning.... not sure about a run, we'll see how much time I have.  We have a wedding to go to, so unless I squeeze the run in between stadiums and class, it probably won't happen.

I think that's that for now!  I hope everyone has a good weekend!  My goal is to stay on track and not let my weekend ruin all my hard work from this past week! I'll just keep this in mind.... ;)